As some of you may remember, I recently posted about getting a developer job a few weeks back. I was beyond excited to share the news with my fellow free code campers. I had interviewed at about 4 or 5 other places to no avail. Although I did receive some good feedback from the employers, most of the time they went with someone with a little bit more experience. And then I had a phone interview with a pretty decent marketing company not far from where I live. That phone interview turned into an in person interview which was very casual, and I was offered the job the following day.
I was there for two weeks before they let me go. The reason for this was because they said I wasn’t as up to speed on my programming as they thought. I was disappointed because in the interview they said they knew there was going to be some on the job training for the first few months, but I guess they weren’t prepared to give me as much support as I needed. It was just me and one other developer and he basically raised concerns from the time I was hired. The head of IT said he wanted to give me some time (5 days to be exact), at which point they told me they needed someone with a little more experience. I wish that they had possibly vetted me a little better, but I also feel like I am to blame. Maybe I should be better then where I currently am. I had to learn a jQuery library I never heard of and implement it into an application for the sales team of this company (was able to do so after a couple days). I also had to do some wordpress edits for clients which they had. Some were easy, others I had some questions about. If they needed someone with more experience then thats fine, I just wish I had known ahead of time, because now I am unemployed, and also seriously doubting whether or not this is a profession that I should even be in. I know that the environment I need is more for a junior role, with hopefully more then one other developer, and definitely someone who doesn’t mind taking me under their wing. I was hoping that this was going to be a great stepping stone into my dev career, but I feel like i just had a piece torn out of me.
I honestly was very hesitant to write this post, because I am down right embarrassed. I feel like i have failed myself again and again, I feel like im a disappointment to my family (i know that im not but thats just how i feel, they have actually been supportive and have all encouraged me to keep going). While i needed some comfort food to get over this feeling (which Im not at all over), my plan is to get right back on the horse, keep applying for jobs, keep learning and growing as a developer (I know my JS needs serious work), and to just keep on looking forward. Watched a couple of ‘Learning from Failure’ videos on youtube, and I have a project that I am planning to start in the coming days to keep learning. I just wanted to share this and let people know not to let failure get the best of you, learn from your mistakes, and above all else don’t give up. I am seriously down about this whole experience, but I am really hoping it makes me a lot stronger in the long run.