Hey there. I am from Malaysia and I have grand dreams of being able to make a living doing freelance developer work, moving out of his country and travelling the world.
I came across this website and every time I try to study I get these nagging worries - worries that I would spend 300 hours or more studying everything, only to not get a job.
I am 34 years old now, and never in my life that I have really accomplished anything great. I still live with my mother, I am not married, I don’t have my own car, I live very frugally, etc, etc.
Every time I look at others I am filled with a great sense of envy and humbleness. I see people younger than me who have accumulated much more money, who get married, who seemed to just cruise through getting a cozy developer job in their early 20s.
It’s like I am Rocky in the third movie now, where he is just plagued by a combination of his post-prime years, sadness from Mickey’s death, fright of going toe-to-toe with Clubber Lang, that he just…stopped training with Apollo and becomes paralyzed as he just stares at the beach standing there.
I suppose I just lost the Eye of the Tiger now. I recall I was very enthusiastic about the future as a kid, but now, failure after failure after failure right to my mid-30s I feel like it’s too late to even try anymore.
How do I assuage these fears that I will never get a freelance job or a full-time job even after studying through all the materials here in Freecodecamp? Or in general, how do you guys deal with the fear that it’s too late for you, that you are just going to fail anyway, as you get older?